Today is I have been alive for a full 19 years and I appear to have finally found the time that the grown ups always told you was coming when you were having fun in some theme park. You always ask; "why aren't you excited about your birthday?" in the naive way that children do and the awnser was always along the lines of "you get over it" or somehting.
I remember my birthday 10 years ago when I was so happy because I had the day off school and we went to the zoo, it was sunny and I was having fun seeing all the animals and playing with my brother. I think that was when I was happiest, it is certainly the happiest I can ever remember being.
I've been doing things that I thought would help me all my life, rarely making a decision by what I want. I, like many other people have tried to abide by the better angels of my nature and do what should be done for the better. I don't think I've done a great job of it.
"I once walked into a room and saw my great-uncle in the dark, crying, so I went over and asked him 'Uncle, what is wrong?' And he turned with an ashen face and said in a voice that sounded like a thousand winters 'My shoes are too tight, but it doesn't matter because I have forgotten how to dance.' I didn't understand until now what he meant, Vir. Now I see, so now I sit here in the dark, crying, because my shoes are too tight, but it doesn't matter because I have forgotten how to dance"-Londo Molari
Maybe it would be easier if the better angels of my nature didn't have horns. Life goes on.
Pax
Don
2008-05-01 @ 17:07