I've been home for almost two month and have another two months until Uni starts again and I've noticed that time appears to flow in a strange mannar in Devonshire. It seems to be caught in a temporal loop because every year is exactly the same as the one before.

Sites that were renovated last year are either still being renovated or they are being rebuilt, everything is so similar to the way it was.

That was what I wrote half a month ago as a draft and it still applies.The only difference now is that I have attained the state which I ussually blog in, for anyone who hadn't already guessed I am not slightly intoxicated.

It isn't so much the constant ridicule or pointed comments which disinflate my self-estime which bother me so much about being home: it's that I don't really spend any time with my friends from school. I have been out with my friends from ICC twice, in comparison I have walked for an hour to the loce pharmacy for baby cream for my brothers tatoo more times than I have been out with them.

It's not their fault though, It's mine, if I really wanted to do something I would call them right? FFS! If I really thought I could do that then why would I be complaining about it to an online community who are as likely as not only checking my blog as their bootleg copy of My Chemical Romance downloads. I can't seek out things, I don't know how. It took me forever to sort out my loans for next year and the ony reason that I finally did was that we had a power cut for a day and a half with no new books to read!

I should listen less to the insincere(I hope) jests of my family and concentrate more on what one of my friends from uni told me: "Don't let people tell you that youa re less than you are, you are too good for that." He was drunk at the time so I may have polished the language a little, but the thought remains.

I have always wanted to have a daughter, I don't know why that would be relavent but it is true.

Pax
Don

PS I wrote this a while ago and thought it would be best to leave it in draft until I was drunk enough to post it. It is quite old.